Today was better

Today was better than yesterday, but not great. I hate feeling this way. I am learning to do things differently. That's all I have for now. Good night!!

Today... not so good!!

Last night I was really upset and missed my grandmother so much. It seemed like everything reminded me of her. I kept thinking how much I wanted her to meet Sydney. It all started when I picked up my phone and almost called her. The weird thing is she has been gone since 2004. This is the first time in a really long time that I have done that.

Then we get to today. My dad called me during our lunch rush and left me a message telling me he was on his way to the ER due to a headache that had not gone away in a couple of days. This was hard for me. My mom is out of town for business and he was by himself. I wished I could drive there so he didn't have to be by himself but now that we are 2 1/2 hours away it makes things like that hard.

Today is also my best friend Abby's 21st birthday. I was sad because I wouldn't be there to spend time with her and celebrate with her. Happy Birthday Abby!! I hope you had a great day.

A lot of other things happened that just made today even harder. I have so many different feelings going on right now. At times I feel like I am about to have an emotional breakdown. I feel like if that happens the only person I will be able to turn to is Jason and he isn't good with situations like that. He tries but it makes him uncomfortable. Then this all leads back to me missing my grandmother, and my family, and friends. I feel so alone today. I don't think I have ever felt like this and I hope this feeling goes away soon. I could ramble on but I'm starting to cry again and I don't want to do that before bed.

Happy Birthday Abby!! I hope you are having a wonderful day!! I miss you so much!!!

Good news

About two weeks ago Sydney's neurologist called with the results from the EEG and MRI/MRA. When I first answered the phone I was very nervous and scared. But, the Lord came through for us once again. The Dr. told us that he did see an abnormality in the EEG but the MRI/MRA he compared to the day after she was born and...

The spot where Sydney had the stroke shrunk!!! He said he has only seen this a couple of times and he sees thousands of children. He told us that somehow the tissue is no longer dead. He had no answers for this except we have an amazing and remarkable child and he described her as a miracle.

Thank you God for our Sydney Claire. Thank you for protecting her and healing her!! Our lives would not be complete without this precious red head!!!